May 1, 2008

I found this photo in Claire’s photobucket account (sorry Claire, i was snooping!). I really love it. I almost considered painting my bathroom that colour. But then I saw the paint chips (yep, went so far as to get chips!) under the vanity lights, and it hit me - I can’t do it! I can’t have a bathroom with pee-green walls. The reflection alone would be enough to make me look awful, let alone the feeling of… i don’t even know what.
Nevertheless, I do enjoy this colour combination, and now I’m going to show a few more poppies that make me happy.

Someday I’d like to have my own poppy-filled yard. No need to cut the grass.

Someday I will find someone who can love me as much as I love him. And not be afraid of the feelings that come with that love. And someday I will marry this person, and I will have simple, beautiful flowers like this.

I love this Poppeeeee too! He is my Fantastical French Fred (Alfred, formally).

And this is just cool. So are you. And so is Carrie, for coming up with colour inspiration for my bathroom. Thanks for all the comments and suggestions. I’ve decided to move out of my apartment instead.
Seriously!
April 20, 2008

Any ideas? I love photos…
April 11, 2008
Have you wondered where I’ve been? I seem to have dropped off the face of the earth. This blog is usually a place for me to write about happy, pretty, wonderful things, and unfortunately, I haven’t been feeling very wonderful lately.
To briefly explain, my four year relationship has recently ended, and I’ve been in a state of fear, sadness, and limbo. I’m very greatful for the support of friends - both people I know in real-life, and those on-line who have surprised me with their kind words. Thank you to everyone, it means more to me than you could possibly know.
My creativity took a bit of a dive for the past three weeks, but last night I started a ‘Feelings Blanket’ using colours that represent how I’m feeling. It’s an intuitive blanket and I’m using a large granny-square pattern as inspiration. I will be documenting this progress. I also plan to finish some of my WIPs, including an order for a local shop. Redecorate my bathroom. Celebrate my birthday (it was on March 30th, but being a week into the breakup, I did not feel like being happy yet). Purge a lot of my belongings. Do some of the things on my 101 list. Move to Ireland for a few months. Let life happen as it happens.
This is a time of change for me, and another sign that I need to let go of control. Life is aligning itself to force me to do things on my own, so I’m going to follow my intuition and let it lead me where I should go.
I’m going to let myself ‘feel it all.’
